The man ran as far as he could. He suddenly stopped and realized that he was near the
beachside. There he sat down and looked up in the sky. Then these thoughts came to his
mind...

It is said that to move forward is to look at your past. True, but you should also do away
with it. Sticking with the past just drags you down, the disappointments,  the heartaches,
the meaningless kindness you give... all of those should be forgotten.

Sounds wierd doesn't it? Well as days go by, thinking about the past just slows me down.
Thinking of my past self? Haha! It makes me pity myself. Seeing myself so young, so giving,
so trusting, so...naive. I begin to wonder if I wasted my whole youth, thinking that these
people I have been living with, these people whom I helped were worth all the trouble at
all. They don't do the same thing for me. Not that I want them to do anything for me, at the
very least I wanted them to remember me. Did it happen? The answer is simple...NO!

Helping people whom I dont know, trusting people who you just met, thinking that my life is
to serve and make other people happy? That idea of mine, is now but a thing that I laugh
about. Throughout my days, I learned the harsh truth, people now matter how selfless you
are, no matter what kindness you show to them, is nothing to the material things they have
and receive in this mortal realm. Spiritual and emotional support, all of it are meaningless.

Now? I just wonder, should I just surrender this body, to the one whom I fought so hard to
contain? Should I just let him do everything he wants? Come to think of it, my old self is
just a miserable, useless and naive person. People abuse kindness, so whats the use of
showing such attitude to them? I wonder.... I just wonder... how long would I be able to
handle my sanity. I wonder, what will happen if I ever lose this war...